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Chapter 5 - Rebuilding from the Ashes

Saturday morning broke with that clear, washed blue that only comes after three days of steady dry wind. The mud on Route 9 had turned to dust, blown away into the broom-sedge pastures by the logging trucks, and the Cedar Hollow underpass was open again, its concrete walls bearing only a high, dark water-mark like a pencil line drawn three feet above the culvert.

At eight-thirty, a battered blue pickup—an old Ford from the early nineties with one white fender and a tailgate held shut by a bungee cord—rattled into my driveway.

It wasn't Caleb.

Pastor Grant climbed out of the driver’s side, his denim work shirt dark with sweat at the armpits. From the passenger side came Tessa, holding Miles, who was wearing a pair of yellow canvas sneakers that looked brand new.

"Morning, Evelyn," Pastor Grant called out, lifting a five-gallon bucket of white exterior oil-paint from the truck bed. "The men’s fellowship had four gallons left over from the parsonage annex. We figured your front trim hadn't seen a brush since the late nineties."

Behind him, two other men from the congregation—men who had known Thomas when they were all young and had their teeth—stepped out of the cab carrying aluminum extension ladders.

"I didn't ask for charity, Grant," I said from the porch rail, though my voice lacked any real bite.

"Nobody said it was charity," the pastor replied, setting the bucket on the grass with a heavy thud. "Tessa here said she wanted to scrub your lower siding before the painters started, and since she’s living in the church annex apartment until her deposit clears on the mill house, I’m her landlord. Consider it part of her rent."

Tessa came up the porch steps, Miles gurgling happily as he reached for the wind chimes hanging from the eaves.

"Hannah Ruiz came by the shelter yesterday," Tessa said, leaning over the rail. "She wanted to know if I was going to do a follow-up story about the flood relief."

"Did you?"

"I told her I didn't have anything to say to a camera," Tessa replied, setting Miles down on an old quilt I had spread across the floorboards. "I told her that when a woman saves your baby from drowning, you don't talk about it on the five o'clock news; you go over to her house and help her paint her eaves."

By nine o'clock, the side yard smelled of turpentine, white lead paint, and the damp earth being turned over by my garden spade.

Then the second car arrived.

It wasn't the silver Lexus.

It was an eight-year-old Honda Civic, blue, with a small dent in the rear quarter panel and four mismatched hubcaps. Caleb got out of the driver’s side. He was wearing an old pair of faded Carhartt work trousers and a gray t-shirt from his law school intramural softball team that was torn at the collar.

He walked around to the passenger side and opened the door.

Owen stepped out. The boy was wearing his Little League pants, his red ball cap pulled low over his eyes, his new Rawlings glove clutched against his chest like an infant.

Behind them, Sophie climbed out of the back, her small, round face solemn, her brown hair tied into two uneven pigtails that looked like they had been attempted by a man who had never handled a rubber band before.

Natalie was not in the car.

Caleb walked up the driveway, his eyes taking in the ladders, the paint buckets, and Pastor Grant standing on an apple crate with a scraper. He didn't look away, and he didn't try to look important. When Pastor Grant nodded at him—a short, cool, churchman’s nod that was neither friendly nor hostile—Caleb tipped his head in return.

"Morning, Grant," Caleb said.

"Caleb."

The boy didn't wait for his father. Owen ran up the three porch steps, his sneakers squeaking on the wet grass, and stopped two feet from my chair. He looked at the bandage on my right hand, which had been reduced that morning to a clean square of white gauze and two strips of medical tape.

"Does it hurt, Grandma?" he asked.

"Not when I’m sitting still, Owen," I told him.

He looked down at the glove in his hands. It was still stiff, the yellow leather smelling of oil and cowhide, the laces thick and pale.

"Dad said you know how to break the pocket in with neat’s-foot oil," the boy said, his lower lip trembling just enough to show the gap where his two front teeth were growing in crooked. "He said you did Dad’s first glove with an old baseball and some twine."

"I did," I said. "And your dad’s glove lasted twelve seasons before the webbing broke."

I looked past the boy’s red cap toward the steps. Caleb was standing at the bottom rail, holding Sophie by the hand. The little girl had an eight-pack of Crayola crayons clutched in her small fingers and a tablet of cheap construction paper under her arm.

"Where is your mother, Caleb?" I asked.

Caleb looked at the ground for a second, then met my eyes. "She’s in Raleigh. With Marjorie."

"Did she take her things?"

"She took three suitcases," he said, his voice flat, level, and devoid of the lawyer’s defensive rattle. "She said she wouldn't be humiliated by living in Oak Creek while people were talking about us. She said until I got my position back at Miller & Vance and issued a public correction, she wasn't going to subject the children to the 'atmosphere' here."

"And the children?"

"I told her the children were staying with me," Caleb said.

The silence on the porch became very sharp. Even Miles stopped rattling his wooden spoon against the floorboards.

"You told Natalie that?" I asked.

"I did," Caleb said. He stepped onto the first porch step. His skin had lost that smooth, indoor pallor; he had spent forty-eight hours in the sun, and his nose was peeling. "I told her that if she wanted to live in Raleigh on Marjorie’s trust fund, that was her business. But Owen and Sophie have school here. They have a house here. And they have a grandmother here who doesn't need a press release to love them."

Martha walked out through the front screen door, holding a pitcher of iced tea with three lemons floating in the dark amber liquid. She looked at Caleb, looked at the Honda Civic at the curb, and then looked at the two children standing on the porch.

"Well," Martha said, setting the heavy glass pitcher on the wicker table with a solid *thunk*. "I suppose that old Civic uses less gas than that German tank you were driving."

"Twenty-eight miles to the gallon, Aunt Martha," Caleb said, looking her straight in the eye.

Martha sniffed, but she reached into her apron pocket and pulled out two peppermint candies wrapped in cellophane, holding them out toward Sophie.

"Go wash your hands at the garden hose, little girl," Martha said, "and I’ll give you a biscuit with blackberry jam."

Sophie looked at her father. Caleb nodded. The girl dropped her crayons on my wicker table and scrambled down the steps toward the backyard where the water spigot was dripping.

Caleb turned back to me. He pulled an envelope from his hip pocket—a plain white legal envelope, unsealed.

"What is that?" I asked.

"It’s my resignation from Miller & Vance," he said.

I looked at him. "You didn't wait for the review?"

"No," he said. He laid the envelope on the low table beside the snap-pea colander. "Mr. Miller called me yesterday afternoon. He said the management committee had decided they could keep me on if I agreed to take a thirty percent pay cut, move to the research office in Greensboro, and sign a mutual non-disclosure agreement regarding the firm's clients and... the incident."

"And?"

"And I told him that my mother didn't raise me to hide in Greensboro," Caleb said. His voice was very quiet now, but it had an iron ring in it that had been missing since he was thirty years old. "I told him that I was opening my own office in the old bank building across from the courthouse. Jimmy’s father—Chief Henderson—came to see me this morning. He’s got three nephews who were cheated out of their overtime by the timber contractor down in Rowan County. He asked if I’d take the case on contingency."

"Contingency cases don't pay the mortgage on North Hills, Caleb," I said.

"We’re moving out of North Hills by the first of July," he said. "I found a rental on Church Street. It has three bedrooms, an oak tree in the front yard, and the school bus stops at the corner."

He looked at Owen, who was now sitting on the porch floor beside Miles, showing the baby how the glove’s pocket could catch a tennis ball.

"Owen likes the porch on Church Street," Caleb murmured. "He said it looks like yours."

I looked at my son.

I saw the gray hairs at his temples that hadn't been there at Christmas. I saw the cheap blue car that didn't have heated leather seats or German suspension. I saw the dirt on his Carhartt trousers and the sweat stains on his gray intramural shirt.

He had lost his partnership. He had lost his eighty-thousand-dollar automobile. He had lost the approval of Marjorie Gable and the polished, bloodless society of women who ate lunch off Lenox china with silver forks.

And for the first time in twenty-five years, he looked like a man Thomas Vance would have shared a water jug with at the end of a long furrow.

"Owen," I said.

The boy looked up from the baby. "Yes, Grandma?"

"Go tell your father to look under the work bench in the back shed," I told him. "There's an old tin of neat's-foot oil behind the kerosene can, and a wooden mallet with a rounded head. If we don't get the leather soaked before the sun gets high, that pocket won't take the shape of the ball before your game on Tuesday."

Caleb didn't move for three seconds. He stood on the porch step, his hand resting on the square wooden pillar, his chest rising and falling with that slow, deep rhythm of a man who has finally put down an iron stove he had been carrying up a mountain for twenty years.

"Yes, ma'am," he whispered.

May you like

He turned toward the garden path, his boots crunching on the gravel, his back straight against the morning sun.

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